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i just realised how fragile true friendships are . we take ages to build the trust among one another, but everything can be broken in a second , by a major or even a minor matter.
true friends dont keep things from one another. you tell each other anything, frankly.
true friends dont backstab one another . they voice them out .
true friends help one another improve themselves . not making them feel bad.
true friends dont lie to one another . they just dont .


i've had a close friend . or should i say a close sister . we've been together since last year when i first stepped into the school . [ i was tranfer ] Maybe i should call this coincidental or FATED as we were both in the same class and were asked to " buddy " each other . After the " buddy " system ended , we became friends . a normal friend to close friend then to best friend and lastly , sisters . Whenever i go , there will always be her right beside me . whenever there's her , there will always be me right beside her . we will always go home together no matter what . you can say we are like blood-sister . a real sister . those sister that you swear never to part . you will never abandon one another when troble or problems come . both will solve it together --- as ONE ! `


Until this year , our SisterShip started to drift apart as we were promoted to a different class . She , had her new SISTER as for me myself and i , i continue to regard her as my sister . my classmates are all my friends . From the TWO of us , it soon became THREE . i accepted that as i always tell myself that a one almost to two years FRIENDSHIP will always be better then a few months FRIENDSHIP . But i was soooo wrong . As we were from the same class , our dismissal time is different . our supplymentry time too is different . If i`m earlier then them , i will always wait for them no matter what . Sometimes my classmates asked to accompany them but i declined . what about THEM ? when they were earlier then me , both will go SOMEWHERE ELSE without waiting for me . like WHAT THE FUCK is this ?!` just dump me aside and go somewhere else ? i tolerate . i kept quiet as i didn want them to think that i`m petty . But after a period of time , i've decided to leave them ALONE . i went to find someone else whom treats me the way i treated them which is DAN YING ! yes its you . When it was our break time , i will leave both of them alone . normally , i will always look for them but i told myself whats the point ?` i`m just being a fool if i went to look for them . what for look for them when they themselves don't want too . they just wants to be ALONE !` i don't blame the other girl ; Mavis for coming into our FRIENDSHIP as i find her ok . she's trustable . reliable . a person whom can make me trust to let her be my SISTER . but i`m utterly DISAPPOINTED in my close SISTER . she actually treats me in this MANNER !` ask me to forgive and forget ? IMPOSSIBLE !

As time passes , i will always be with someone else but not her . even if its with her , we seldom talked as she would alway be fooling around with some other people . During our lunch break , i would always be with Dan Ying and all in the library with those Malay Boys . But soon , both would appear . SHE ; my close SISTER would go beating those Malay Boys which left with only Dan Ying , Mavis and i . 3 of us would then stay together and talked , play and fool around .


This has been happening almost everyday until Wednesday . As my close SISTER i shall name her GIRL A has always had conflict with some other people which i treat them as my friends so did Mavis and all . cause Mavis was asked to group with them for Art lesson . Before that , Mavis asked her if GIRL A is alright with them and she said YES . before that , i too asked her and she said YES . so Mavis talked , joked and fool around with them . At the other side , GIRL A became not happy and showed a BLACK FACE . Mavis , without knowing anything went over her to talk to her but GIRL A just FUCKING showed a STUPID BLACK FACE and walked away .

As it was lunch break and as usual , both Dan Ying & i would go to the library so Mavis came and told us everything and she actually CRIED !` After having our oral , Mavis showed Dan Ying and i a letter . although Mavis was not at fault , but she apologised to GIRL A . but GIRL A wrote back to her saying that she snatched away her friends which is Dan Ying and me . she say that in the past , SHE , Dan Ying and me were freaking close but until this year she stepped in , our FRIENDSHIP drift . After reading it , of cause i was furious . if she said that MAvis snatched away her friends and her SISTERSHIP with me drift , what about me , what about her and Mavis ? Just leave me aside . so now , Mavis and Dan Ying are with me but GIRL A is with MING MEI ! .


From my point of view , i think that GIRL A belongs to a person which wants her friends to be with her ONLY . her friends can only be close , play , joke and fool around with HER only . if her friends did all those with other people , she would just get ANGRY . As i`m very close with Farhan ; i treat him as my CLOSE BROTHER . a person whom i can share my problems with . a person whom i trust the most .a person whom i will treasure . a person whom i will help him if i`m capable of helping him . a person whom i care and concern him the most . ] , we would often chat on msn for hours . talked on the phone for hours too and in school when we see each other , we will start to fool around . i remembered SOMEONE told me that GIRL A was not happy about it . she says that when i`m chatting with Farhan in msn , when GIRL A talks to me , i will not reply her . FUCK this can . when did i ever not reply her message ? so you mean only SHE can be close with someone else while i CANT ? i have my own freedom on who i want to be close with . who i treat them as my CLOSE BROTHER or SISTER . What about her , when she's super close with Mavis and all forgot about me , does she knows how i feel ? NO . she DONT !`[ i`m not furious of MAvis ok . so don't get the wrong idea . i`m furious on how she treated me . ] forgive and forget ? IMPOSSIBLE !`


Yesterday , GIRL A sent me a email . both of us email-ed each other for quite long and she actually told me that its not HER FAULT its MAvis . so being furious , i replied asking her to stop blaming Mavis and she say " ya ya . Mavis is your precious . i shan'nt say her anymore incase you gets angry . " like WHAT THE FUCK is this ? FUCKING HELL . she says how fast people change and she say that i actually believe in a few months FRIENDSHIP then a one year coming to two years FRIENDSHIP . what about her ? why don't she reflect and see how she treats me when she's with Mavis ? FUCK UP . i shan'nt go into detail of what we email-ed each other . If you wants to know , tell me through msn . but please take note . i will only let people whom i trust and close with and concerns to this problem . Farhan , Dan Ying , Mavis , . . . . . .

i must also say if its not for GIRL A , both syakirin and i won'nt get to be this close although its not very close . but both of us knows our feelings towards each other although i thinks that his feelings has already fade . without her help , i won't be able to have a wonderful memoriiex with himand also i will not be able to have a happy time spending together with him . i`m really thankful to her .


FARHAN PLEASE HELP ME IN THIS . I`M TOTALLY HELPLESS WITHOUT YOUR ADVISE AND HELP . !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





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